It still hurts so much

Destiny and I a year ago

When will it not hurt so much anymore? When will the tears stop flowing when I’m wide awake late at night? When will I be able to come home and not feel the extreme hurt when she’s not there to greet me, with the other dogs? 

She was so much more than a dog. She was a major part of our family. I remember the day we got her, just as vividly as I remember the births of my human babies.  

I also remember the feel of that tumor, the sounds she made when breathing, the way she had such a hard time moving around….

I remember everything.  I still hear the noises she made, from time to time.

It’s hard to feel this much sadness, all the time. Often trying to hide just how sad I feel. Saying goodbye to her was one of the hardest goodbyes I’ve ever been through, and I’m still trying to get through it. I’m just not doing a very good job of it yet I guess.

Saying goodbye

This past Saturday we had to do something that was incredibly hard. We had to say goodbye to Destiny, our Black Lab/Irish Setter mix. She was such a good girl! We finally decided a week ago it was time. So we called the vet and set the appointment for Saturday. Giving us time to say goodbye.

She was battling cancer, and the cancer was winning. She had a large inoperable tumor on her throat.

Now she’s gone, but never ever forgotten.