It still hurts so much

Destiny and I a year ago

When will it not hurt so much anymore? When will the tears stop flowing when I’m wide awake late at night? When will I be able to come home and not feel the extreme hurt when she’s not there to greet me, with the other dogs? 

She was so much more than a dog. She was a major part of our family. I remember the day we got her, just as vividly as I remember the births of my human babies.  

I also remember the feel of that tumor, the sounds she made when breathing, the way she had such a hard time moving around….

I remember everything.  I still hear the noises she made, from time to time.

It’s hard to feel this much sadness, all the time. Often trying to hide just how sad I feel. Saying goodbye to her was one of the hardest goodbyes I’ve ever been through, and I’m still trying to get through it. I’m just not doing a very good job of it yet I guess.

Jobs jobs jobs!

Sorry I haven’t been able to post as regularly as I was! I had gotten a job and that completely threw me off. I’ve since left that job.  However I’ve started a new one! One that I know well, since I’ve worked for this company before doing the exact job I was just hired to do. 

As to why I quit the other one? It was a horrible fit for me. I don’t “fit” well with fast food. Some do, and that’s awesome. But me?  Nope! That incredible fast pace is too fast for me. And since I was working lunch rush almost every day – it was very little down time.

With my new job, I’m able to work at a pace that is more comfortable for me.  This is a job I know I can stick with long term. The only reason I didn’t stick with them before was because there was that opportunity that made it so I could stay home with my kids when we moved a year ago.  Now my stay at home mom days are done, but that’s okay! I’m willing to do what it takes to help make sure we survive. If that means I work, then that’s what I’ll do!

More posts will be coming, with recipes and other stuff! Be on the look out!

New Job

I officially started a new job yesterday! I actually had orientation last week, but yesterday was my first actual shift. I had been a SAHM for a year and our situation prompted me to look for work.

I'm hoping to spend some of my time off coming up to get more posts written up and scheduled to go live. Please be patient with me though as this is already proving to be a huge transition in mine and my family's lives. There will be more recipes posted soon though - I promise!